Strange title for my only blog entry since it's invalidated by its very existence. I am posting on Zaadz, so obliviously I am a liar. If I were you I would just click the Back button on your web browser right now.

I work with computers every day; it's part of my job. But my spiritual base and path are entirely consumed by those I can see and feel and kiss and spank. I feel that I don't know you until I can look you in the eye. If you don't appear before me, either on my porch or in my travels then you really don't exist. Now on the other end of that spectrum I am deeply involved with those I am with.

I'm not telephobic. I do speak to people by satellite or e-mail or Post-It Note or Etch-A-Sketch, but they are people I know. I have had several long and fruitful business relationship with people I never met personally. But that was business.

My personal path does not include formal teachers or teachings. I know I can learn from everyone, but no one can teach me. I am not looking to increase my personal circle or sphere of influence so I don't proselytize. You may learn something from me, but I am not trying to teach anyone anything. Unless you know me then I really don't believe I should influence you. I am very content with my own personal Church of the Porch which to me is very real. I am always hopeful that new people will float into my life, but it is a key part of my path to focus on those who already are here. When my friends leave my personal space they are gone. Possibly in the same way you used to feel about your second grade teacher when school was over. I love them and will stay in touch, but they aren't here for me to be with so they cannot come first. Even my precious daughter whom I share with my ex-wife is gone when she's gone. She's not out of my mind, she's just not here and so I focus on who is. Love the ones you're with.

Some of my closest friends are on Zaadz. Heather is here and she is the love of my life. John and Doug are here too. All combined, I have known the three of them personally for 79 years. That's not unusual for me, I have known the majority of my close friends for over 30 years, but most of them aren't on Zaadz and never will be. They are on my porch pretty regularly though.

I have become aware of Zaadz and many Zaadzsters through my friends, but I don't know any of you. I don't read very many postings directly, but I do enjoy hearing about them. I must admit that I am simultaneously intrigued and amused by the goings-on. For a while I tried to maintain the Church of the Porch site, but I just couldn't get myself worked up over seeds or false prophets. It did make me realize that my ministry is really just on my porch which I guess I share with you through my friends on Zaadz even though it's not even mine to share, nor am I really doing the sharing.

I don't expect to post again, but I cannot predict the future, even my own actions, any more than I can tell you the nature of God. I will promise to look at any comments you might post, but then even that might be a lie. Since you don't really know me, you might never know.